Thursday, April 28, 2005
Friday's the Day!
So, I'm getting my tubal done (via Essure) TOMORROW MORNING! It was supposed to be June 27th, but they had a cancellation so I took it. I went to the doctor a couple of days ago for my presurgery consultation and met the doctor who will be doing the procedure. He was kind of weird, but nice. I had a blood/urine pregnancy test (if they're doing a blood test, do they REALLY need to test my pee too?) and a pelvic exam (always fun when you're not expecting it) and watched a little video. I'm going in at 7 a.m., so...that's that, I suppose!
Monday, April 25, 2005
All 5 kids taking a walk.

All 5 kids taking a walk.
Originally uploaded by lalagirl.
Just sharing a little photo...
Thursday, April 21, 2005
I could probably come up with a title if I weren't so tired.
One of the things that frustrates me so much about having all these babies is that no matter how much I plan ahead, and no matter how much I try to stick to our Daily Schedule and Routine - I never can get ahead of the game. I'm always trying to catch my own ass and at the end of the day, I still have a dozen things I *meant* to do, but never got around to doing. This is why I have unpacked boxes of computer equipment and office supplies serving as bedroom decor. This is why I haven't scrapbooked in almost three years. This is why I haven't finished a book since before the baby girls were born. This is why we step on Cheerios on the kitchen floor - dammit, I meant to sweep that up; I really, really did, but I just fed both the babies and gave both the toddlers a bath and all of a sudden it was 5:30.

I really don't see a solution to it, either. I guess I *could* be more organized. As it is, though, it seems like I'm running my ass off all day long doing stuff for the kids or doing stuff around the house. And days like today - actually, more accurately: weeks like this week make it all seem so much worse. The boy is teething. The girl is having a hard time adjusting to her new bedroom, and to the fact that she's sharing a room with her two baby sisters. Both of them are behind on their sleep. Both are whiny as freakin' hell, throwing these AMAZING fits, screaming and kicking and doing this weird running-in-place thing that cracks me up every time I see them do it, which just serves to piss them off even more. They're picking on each other and whining all day long, and my patience is running out way more quickly than usual because, I, too, am sleep-deprived.

I think that's the reason for all of it. It's not the fact that I have so many kids. It's not the fact that there are only 24 hours in a day. I could handle all of it, I think, if I could just GET SOME FUCKING SLEEP! How I long for the days where I could fall asleep at 10:45 and sleep until 7. Oh, such fond memories I have of those times. I know they'll come 'round again, in a few months, when the new babies start sleeping better at night. But for now, I sit awake at 4 a.m., feeding one of my little yappers, thinking to myself, "I haven't had more than 5 hours of sleep in a row YET THIS YEAR."

It's like our days are just on autopilot - the cooking and the cleaning and the changing of diapers (about twenty-five a day, if you're wondering) and the playing and the trips to Wal-Mart for more formula - it's all just blurry. Thank God I take tons of pictures, or I probably wouldn't even remember their childhoods.
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
I can pick up a phone. Go, me!
Well, I finally called the doctor's office to schedule my tubal ligation. They're supposed to call me back tomorrow morning to schedule it.

Yay!

Did I mention, the type of tubal I'm getting is a brand new, non-surgical method called Essure? My doctor's office (Kaiser) is now ONLY doing this type of tubal, except for those procedures done during a cesarean. They say there's no reason to do ELECTIVE laparoscopic surgery when you can have it done more safely, in a procedure that's not much worse than getting a pap smear.
I'm stoked. I tell you, I am SCARED TO DEATH I'm going to get pregnant, even on the pill, so I can't wait until I don't have to worry about it anymore.